This video. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SSolNmTF9a4

I first watched it when I was watching the show faithfully, and I cried myself worthless when I watched it. I'm just now watching it again on youtube since then, and... aughhhh. ;; Like Nigel said, dance is just... beautiful. It's amazing how one can express so many emotions through movement alone. I was/am so touched by this dance. To me, it meant more than cancer. Emotional "disease" is quite like it's own cancer. Hell, depression. You fight depression, and you fight it for your loved ones. And sometimes you feel like giving up, but then there's that one person who pulls you by the wrists and sends you soaring across the stage...

I just can't even express how much this dance means to me. Someone come cry with me. ;_;

Hey guys, I feel really bad that I have nothing to contribute in this post :< I'm here because of my friend, who played the game recently and who loved Simon.

Now, I think I'm going crazy, because I am absolutely sure that Simon got quite a bit of love from this fandom and I know I've seen fanart of him. However, I can't seem to find any! I promised her I would fish out some pics for her, but they escape me.

So, if you have any Simon fanart, please do share! It will be much appreciated.

OH GOD I THOUGHT THESE WERE NORMAL THINGS xD
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( on DA)

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I had to mail this off, so I didn't have time to scan the original, only time to photocopy it, so the reds turned to greys... but... that's part of the way this drawing is, a little gritty, so that's ok. <3

BTW, if some of you saw Wonder Girls on So You Think You Can Dance last night, you might want to see their PV if you haven't already. (They are SUPA CUTE)... and then of course there is Wonder Girls VS Wonder Baby.

One of my friends just got dumped and I am in no mood at all to be sympathetic. Especially since I know he was cheating on his girlfriend anyway. I can feel the avoidance mode starting up already.

SO TODAY I AM GOING TO RAMBLE ABOUT WHY I AM CRAZY. You have been warned.

It is also important to note that if you have never met me in person you probably have not witnessed some of these symptoms; I am (most of the time) pretty good at either avoiding the computer when I'm in a bad way, or censoring myself after the fact. (The number of LJ posts I have deleted... seriously, you would not believe.) In addition: crazy people don't like to broadcast the fact that we're crazy! Sane people tend to freak out. One thing I have noticed a lot of the time is that sane people exaggerate ("I'll kill you if you touch my stuff" = will get grouchy and sulk a bit if you touch their stuff) and crazy people downplay ("I don't like it when people touch my stuff" = will lose their shit, scream at you, and physically throw you out of the house if you touch their stuff.) I am guilty of this.

( I should be committed for being so twisted: A Guide to Millbrains )

In conclusion: SANITY IS A PRIVILEGE. DO NOT ABUSE IT.

Today I have discovered the best way to deal with Bloo's ridiculous edit: FRIENDS just coming over when they feel like is to not bitch, because it never works. Not threaten because that hasn't worked yet.

ohnono. It's parking my car in the bottom of the driveway so no one can get in and taking the phone off the hook.



I win.

• 11:22 I borrowed someone elses notes for one lecture. She makes reference to the Automan Empire. XD #
• 11:28 Also: atheast, hellonistic and bistantine. Whaaat. #
• 11:55 @galleons See, she's REALLY good. Srsly. Her marks on her essays were AMAZING. Just evidently her general knowledge isn't great. #
• 11:55 @galleons I mean, if you heard 'Ottoman' for the first time, would you immediately know how to spell it? And the lecturer had an accent. #
• 11:56 'Atheast', however, is INEXCUSEABLE. #
• 11:56 Now I am debating pointing this out on Friday, before the exam. But I don't want to offend her. #
• 12:00 I am in the library cafe computer lab because I can eat here. #
• 12:05 @galleons Well, no. It was a philosophy lecture, and it would only have been mentioned in passing. As would 'bisantine' and 'hellonistic'. #
• 12:10 @galleons That is what I am thinking (though 'Hellenistic' was in an earlier lecture and I'm pretty sure it was on the handouts). #
• 12:20 @galleons I don't think so. It was just those four words. #
• 15:22 @cyanosaurus Ewwww! #
• 15:22 Automatic doors make me feel important. :) #
• 16:19 I must look like I'm slacking off all the time. I keep spinning around in my chair. I can't test myself it I'm LOOKING at my notes! #

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HEY GUYS

GUESS WHAT'S COMING OUT TOMORROW!!

Yeeeeeeeeeessssss.

In celebration I have redecorated Seq. 6 style.

I went back to the Natural History Museum today (more on that later, maybe), and aside from learning New and Interesting Things I also went back and checked on that Charles Muntz* Polar Explorer display to see if they were done facsimilating** the Amundsen stuff but they weren't. Not just the chronometer but the mug from the Fram(!) and one or two other things were missing as well. Things which ... all involved ... Amundsen and the South Pole ...

And then I thought:

The 100th anniversary of the arrival of both Scott and Amundsen's parties in Antarctica is coming up, and the 'race to the pole' not long after that. Could it be ... there is some sort of ... THING planned? Somewhere? That maybe I can get to?
*Not actually Charles Muntz but he had an airship and was a 'heroic explorer' in the '30s so his real name never stuck.
**I claim this word in the name of awesome!

This reminded me that I'd poked around the Scott Polar Research Institute website a little bit (a very little bit) and had discovered this:

The Big Draw - Drama in Antarctica
Saturday October 25th 2008 10:00-16:00
Admission free. Everyone welcome.


Note from me: This sketch was by Bill Wilson, who was there!* He was really really good! See for yourself!

It's the Antarctic winter, it's -40°c and your tent has just blown away... Discover adventure and danger on 'The Worst Journey in the World' - the expedition taken by Edward Wilson, Henry 'Birdie' Bowers and Apsley Cherry-Garrard to Cape Crozier in Antarctica to collect Emperor Penguin eggs during the winter of 1911.

Artists Chris and Vikky Furse will be on hand throughout the day, with ideas, techniques and inspriation. Help us draw the drama of 'The Worst Journey in the World' on a giant Freezing Frieze. Add to a colony of penguins, make a snowflake and build an Antarctic pyramid tent to create a snowy landscape in the museum.

No booking required, just turn up and join in the fun.

This was literally ONE DAY after I posted my first Cherry comic. It's like there was, like, some sort of psychic connection, man.

Also, I think 'join the fun' is a nice touch.

*Not at the SPRI, I mean, actually in the Antarctic with Scott. And is still there. With Scott.

I'm not getting email notifications about comments on my posts until days later. This never used to happen. Is anyone else having this problem?

Dec Arts Day 9!
On DA

This was a collaboration image done by Aimee C.(armeleia) and I for Den of Angels 5th Anniversary. Den of Angels is the largest English community for asian ball-jointed dolls. I was one of the founding members of Den of Angels and it's admin for a long time,... and eventually I retired and Aimee C. took over (along with the other volunteer moderators), so it's fitting that we do a collab for the anniversary!

The top figure with the blonde hair and dress was drawn and colored by me, and the lower figure with blue short hair was drawn by Aimee C. I meant to post this a while ago, but the file somehow got lost in my inbox.

You can get some t-shirts with the design, here.

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COUPLE UNRELATED THINGS:

♥ in lieu of that meme going around, how bout you just ask me questions and I'll answer. <3
or you can do it on twitter. By the way, I haven't had time to follow everyone and keep up with twitter and facebook, but if you @aimeekitty on twitter or you reply to a post on facebook, I -will- read it and respond where appropriate. <3

♥ Would you guys like to see a video demo on how I use COPIC markers or draw? (or would you like to see other types of videos...? Mitch is barred from answering this question.)
EDIT: I'll definitely do some drawing and marker tutorials then, when I get some time to figure out my setup, etc. :)

♥ If I did an art show, is it acceptable for me to do it with marker work? Or would I have to use watercolor or gouache or something? The reason I ask is that I've heard some people say they were worried about marker permanence over time? But I don't really know much about this. (I haven't noticed the colors fading, but I haven't really done a study.)

yay xD

I believe this is the opening for Demo Solly update, no?

The whole reason for this post is so i can vent my feelings
and everything that has been eating me up inside i can get out. i need
to feel like i am telling this to someone and that someone is listening
i hope i dont sound stupid this is my first post here. i rarely open up like this.

I am the shy girl
The most quietest thing you would ever meet.
my world is a very lonely.
it gets very cold and lonely being the person i am.
i dont know how to talk to people, to speak.
i sit and wonder will anyone ever be able to break the wall
that is hiding me from rest of society. will anyone be willing to lend a hand
to a person like me? help me rise up from the gutters and retreat to the streets where
i can smell the beauty that the world contains?
i'm nuts
i'm paranoid , confused, ugly.
i want to be able to tell apart
the jackasses or assholes who are just going to hurt my feelings and the people who are acullty nice and friendly.
so i know who to trust and who will understand.
i want to feel wanted, needed.
is that to much to ask?

• 15:56 Knowledge is porridge! #

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Some Etsy sellers I've bought cute stuff from lately...! ------------
adorapop - lovely romantic jewelry
cottonblue and beautifulwork - adorable Japanese fabrics
stitchduchess - cute and clever crosstitch designs.
woollyduck - felted sweets
kristaface - cute sparkly resin jewelry

thanks for the sugarcookie snowflakes guys! You guys are adorable. <3

Some photos from this week,:

It's been really cold this week (for Southern California...!) I was shocked to see ice on my sidewalk and snow on the surrounding mountains! Luckily our heater got fixed. Either way I'm enjoying wearing my jackets. WOOT.


Here's my current desk. To the left (what you can't see) is a traditional animation desk. We don't use that -too- much anymore, but we still use it.
On my desk (shown) A few rement, some of those cute kidrobot Futurama figures, a karaoke bunny, Lilo and Stitch paper holder... ... my stuffed sakura tofu (the big square thing with legs and a smile. :) )... he has a squishy fake bread on his head. a bunch of tea... and lots of model sheets.
I do my drawings on the cintiq you can see on the right there. I tend to put reference pictures on the left monitor. My desktop backgrounds are Doctor Who and Sugar Sugar Rune.
Started thumbnailing storyboards for my second season 6 Futurama show. Thumbnailing tends to melt my brain,... but it's really fun, too. I can already tell I'm going to have fun with the acting in my sequences... now if I can just get those shots right!


Here's a pic from my tree this year. Noble Fir is my favorite. This little angel is from my grandma's tree. And then, being the animation dork that I have, a good 60% of the rest of the ornaments on my tree are Disney ornaments. my Lilo and Stitch one... and the whole tree itself. I ran out of ornament hooks so I didn't put my red ball ornaments on... I might leave them off. The white look is pretty.

Hey, guys, I've been kinda lurking here since I joined the community very recently and I don't really know what to post. I don't think I have anything relevant to say for that matter, and I don't even think my case is one of SAD—although it is anxiety nonethless, according to my therapist.

My life has been a total mess for years, and I don't think I am ready to tell the whole story right now. The truth is that I am afraid of the world, I am afraid that I will be judged and bashed by people, I am afraid of expressing my own opinions, and, when I do, I tend to be harsh instead of assertive. I am always angry and behaving defensively, like I believed people would betray me sooner or later, I am easily upset but I never tell it. I am never open, although I am easy to grow attached to people, and it makes me suffer so much because I feel like my behavior will end up hurting then, and they'll hurt me because of this.

Most of my relationships happen on the internet because I can't build them in the real world, but even in the internet, I only see my social skills getting worse.

Recently, I broke up with a friend who told me she thought me incapable of loving; she also said she couldn't stand my stuck-up beahvior anymore and that she wanted me to become someone softer and lighter. To be honest, we had been having some disagreements for a while, but I always looked past them.

Now, I just had a little row with another friend. We were talking on Gmail and she said she wanted to read a certain book before she watched the film based on it, and I asked her what the difference was. I understand that people usually prefer the books, and I can't blame them. But I also don't see the point in comparing; you don't enjoy the experience of a movie if you are comparing it with the book all the time. I told that to my friend, and we decided to agree to disagree. A few lines later she said she thought I didn't realise how busy her life was and that she doesn't have time to discuss such stuff, and that she looked past my not being very nice to her crediting it to my anxiety; she said she has to do it quite often and that I can be snappy at her some times, even if I don't realise it. I know all of this, but am I really that wrong to assume that a busy person should turn on the red colour on the IM?

I don't know when I am being snappy, and I don't know how I am supposed to behave.